Inside My Head (Don't forget your helmet)

Fuck people. That is all. Just kidding. But that is my sentiment today. I think it's the music I'm listening to, just has me in a "fuck everyone" kind of mood. People suck and that's the bottom line. The people you care about will be the ones that hurt you the most. But strangers too. The outside world sucks. The ignorance, inconsiderateness, obliviousness, laziness, stupidity, it's just all overwhelming to me sometimes. I was thisclose to getting in a car accident this morning. At a parking lot. Because some idiot decided a parking lot was the perfect place to ignore stop signs and speed. But because I always assume everyone on the road is stupid, it's like I already expected the idiot to blow the stop sign and had already slowed down, foot hovering over my brake. What I didn't expect was for the guy to give me the finger for apparently getting too close to his precious old ass, shitty truck. Really dude? Why? You blew a stop sign, completely blew it...

Work. What a change a few months and a different job can make. I no longer wake up in the morning with a feeling of dread. I no longer get a stomach ache and anxiety on Sunday nights. Do I still hate getting up early? Of course, I'm human after all. But my drive to work isn't filled with anxiety, worry, hate, bitterness, etc. Even with traffic, I'm in a pretty good mood as I drive to work in the morning. I feel safe leaving work at night, because I don't have to worry about locking up a parking lot by myself in the dark. We have actual security. I haven't had chest pains in a long time.  I mean, I'm not going to sit here and say that I'm in the best job EVER and oh so HAPPY! That's just not me. My ideal job would be writing and getting paid for it. But the work is good, slowly getting the hang of it and learning all different aspects of my job. The environment is good. We've got some older, jaded people, but I worked with the king of old and jaded be...